11 months.

johnny mac channeling  burt reynolds - his favorite pose.

john has a new friend.

and he is too cute.

10 months.

i can't believe my munchie is 10 months old. 

i don't like how fast time is going by...

happy 2012.

Happy New Year!! We are back from Mexico! Amazing what 10 days away from tv, phones, internet and even a clock can do for your life... the first few days I was riddled with anxiety from not being able to check my email or read the news on my phone, but after the initial shock wore off I felt such an overwhelming amount of calmness (so much so that I cancelled my facebook account the first chance I got and have continued to spend less time online and on the phone since I have been home)... In our 10 days away from reality I was able to catch up on some much needed sleep, reflect on, feel ok with and move on from an issue that has bothered me nearly my entire life, start and actually finish a book, eat as much guacamole as my heart desired, witness my son play with and try to conceptualize sand for the very first time (best. thing. in. the. world.) and hear the ocean crash from my bedroom window every night. Most importantly, I walked off the plane in San Francisco feeling so extremely grateful for my sweet husband + precious son... truly blessed to call them my family. Can't wait to see what 2012 has in store for us! 

happy weekend.

Hope you all had a wonderful holiday weekend! xo

{christmas afternoon walk, napa valley | 2011}

6 months old.

{the love of my life.}

10 weeks old.

these past 10 weeks have been filled with emotions i have never experienced before... and i am grateful for every minute. john truly is a dream. a little love. i don't even know what my life was like before him... and can not imagine a life without him.

these past 10 weeks have also been extremely challenging. the lack of sleep, the loss of independence, the messy house, unorganized life, moments of feeling helpless, etc... coupled with the fact that i am heavier than i have ever been before all have triggered a whole new world of insecurities and frustrations. 

the good news is that day by day things get easier. i am understanding him more and we are finally developing a good routine. my dear friend ali sent me her sleep schedule and so far it has worked wonders... last night he actually slept from 7 pm until 6:11 am (i did not sleep though... i wake up every 30 minutes or so just to make sure he is breathing)! and one of the best lessons i have learned so far is to let go of anything else that is going on in my life... it is amazing how having this baby has taught me something i have spent my entire life trying to learn - patience and peace.